Sheesh...just looking at the title of my last blog post makes me not even want to look at my computer. So I've been avoiding it. Avoiding my computer. Avoiding my blog. Avoiding having to come up with a post that will turn the tide of the last one.
I don't want to come up with a way to make all that better or to sugar coat it. But on the other hand, ugh! I'm so ready for this season of "funk" to be over. The melancholy Jody is not fun to be around. I don't much enjoy her. She sleeps a lot. She's cranky. She doesn't know what's wrong. She doesn't fix her hair. She doesn't have any actual problems, she just feels uninspired, unmotivated, unhygienic.
The good news is my Dad is doing great! Recent blood work came back superfine and he's practically fully recovered and his hair has even grown back. My brother Kevin, has a running joke. When someone asks if Dad needs anything, Kevin has been known to say, "Yeah, Dad needs that like he needs a hole in the head!"
And it seriously makes me crack up even writing it now. Gotta love that Kevin.
My dear Grandmother is dying. So hard for me. One day I'm gonna write a post about all that I think I'm learning through this time of watching her life of 103 years slowly come to it's end. For now, I'll admit that I think we're all pretty much unaware that we're going to die. And we usually put dying people so far removed from our daily existence that we (Western, post-modern, wealthy folk) don't even know what it looks like anymore. Especially if the person is not dying from a disease. My Grandmother is dying because that's what people do when they're 103. You guys have probably already come to this understanding. For me, I'm still grappling with it.
See, the melancholy Jody is not very much fun.
But I'm starting to ..... come up for air. Enjoy what I have. Appreciate who God is even when I'm feeling low. Even take a couple pictures here and there.
I've been leading a Bible study this month and am loving the girls there. Some have some crappy crap stuff in their lives, but they're turning to God and his Word for the answers. We're all struggling through, yet encouraging each other.